Mothers Day 

My moms been a little sick . Nothing serious.So yesterday I took her boiling crab . Hung out left . Today I did the same I called and asked what she wanted to eat she said whatever you want . Hawaiian BBQ if you want . I don’t want Hawaiian BBQ but I say yes rite away cause I know she wants it. I looked at my beautiful mother today while we were eating. And I told her I don’t know what I would do without you. Looked at me and smiled and said why. Because no matter what I  can always run home to you. Even if it’s just to sit on your couch and talk.I told her you keep me strong. And she looked at me with tears in her eyes and said She feels the same way about her mom and  she wants to go home to her too.  I looked at her and said we are so lucky to still have each other. I am beyond blessed with the mother I chose to help me on my journey. She is the reason I continue to be a better mom . She is my feet and the one that keeps me grounded.   My baby couldn’t have been more honored to have a Nana like you. I still remember the day I told Faith I don’t know if I could ever be a good mom I’m scared what if I don’t know how to love you and she laughed and showed me a vision of my mom . The message she gave me was a vision of my mom and she laughed and said yeah rite mom do you know who my Nana is. She was rite she couldn’t have chosen a better Family.

Brielle Faith 

You are the reason I know what it’s like to love like I have never loved before. Thank you Mosha for making me a Mother .  I sometimes wonder if I could ever love anyone the way I love you . I can’t imagine it but I also can’t imagine not . You Hyperexpanded my heart with Unconditional Love and showed me the real meaning of tru beauty . I remember being 24 weeks or so pregnant when you first showed me the beauty of life . You came to me and showed me and told me so much I am forever greatful to be your mother . Thank you. My love for you will always be indescribable . I will have to grow Another heart if I ever plan on loving anyone again . 🎶You will Always be the dream heaven decided was perfect for me 🎶   Thank you baby for being my reason to keep going  . Thank you for always being the voice in the morning that still says mom get up your doing great .  Thank you for always being the one to wake me up every morning for being the one to always give me my first kiss , being my first smile , the one that gives me that extra push over and over again thru out the day but also being the last one to wish me a good nite. You don’t just own this heart you own particles thru out my entire being . Brielle Faith you are beyond amazing and the honor of being your MOM will always be a title ABOVE ALL.

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A Pair Of Shoes

I am wearing a pair of shoes.
They are ugly shoes.
Uncomfortable shoes.
I hate my shoes.
Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair.
Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step.
Yet, I continue to wear them.
I get funny looks wearing these shoes.
They are looks of sympathy.
I can tell in others eyes that they  

 A re glad they are my shoes and not theirs.
They never talk about my shoes.
To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable.
To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them.
But, once you put them on, you can never take them off.
I now realize that I am not the only one who wears these shoes.
There are many pairs in this world.
Some women are like me and ache daily as they try and walk in them.
Some have learned how to walk in them so they don’t hurt quite as much.
Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by before they think about how much they hurt.
No woman deserves to wear these shoes.
Yet, because of these shoes I am a stronger woman.
These shoes have given me the strength to face anything.
They have made me who I am.
I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who has lost a child.